New York Giants kicker Josh Brown was suspended for the first game of the 2016 NFL season over domestic violence allegations that were made against him.
Now it has come to light that those allegations were not only true they were far worse than anyone could have expected.
SNY obtained information from the Kings County Sheriff in Oregon that included a journal Brown kept as well as letters and emails where he detailed the abuse that was taking place.
The documents were part of a 2015 arrest of Brown where he was charged with 4th degree assault/domestic violence of his ex-wife. The charges were eventually dropped, but now perhaps they shouldn’t have been.
“I have physically, mentally, emotionally and verbally been a repulsive man,” Brown wrote in one of his journal entries. Just below that he circled the words ‘I have abused my wife.’”
“I have been a liar for most of my life,” he wrote. “I made selfish decisions to use and abuse women starting at the age of 7 to fill this void. I objectified women and never really worried about the pain and hurt I caused them. My ability to connect emotionally to other people was zero. My empathy levels were zero.
“Because I never handled these underlying issues I became an abuser and hurt Molly physically, emotionally and verbally. I viewed myself as God basically and she was my slave.”
“I have physically, verbally and emotionally abused my wife Molly,” “I have controlled her by making her feel less human than me, and manipulated her with money” and “I have disregarded my step sons’ feelings and they have witnessed me abusing their mother.”
The contract also said he “viewed pornography on a consistent basis to manage my desire for physical contact.” Josh writes several times in the emails and journal about his addiction to sex and pornography. In one email he wrote “I developed into a sexual deviant that viewed sex as a sport all most (sic).”
I have struck fear in your heart and not love, compassion or friendship. From the bruise on your leg when we argued … to the zipper that caught you last April. I am ashamed and disgraced to call myself a husband.”
Two interesting things of note: (1) The Giants signed Brown to a new 2-year, $4 million contract in April WHILE he was appealing his suspension, and (2) Tom Brady got a four-game suspension for allegedly deflating some footballs. Something is definitely off here.
So much for Odell Beckham, Jr. being the “bad seed” on the New York Giants, huh?