First, I’d like to offer my condolences to the stock photo models pictured above. I bet you never thought posing for this seemingly innocent photo would land you at the top of a story about consensual incest. And yet, here you are; the faces of someone else’s fucked up story. Those are the breaks of living the stock photo lifestyle. Moving on…
An anonymous 18-year-old girl had her “special” story told on NYMag yesterday. That special story is entitled “What It’s Like to Date Your Dad” and it’s a barf-inducing tale of how she willingly lost her virginity to, became lovers with, and is now engaged to her biological father.
A quick and dirty summary of how these two love birds ended up here goes like this: After getting her mother pregnant as a teen, this girl’s her biological father has been in and out of her life for the last 18 years. The two of them had an appropriate parent-child relationship — albeit a distant one because her mother became overbearing and refused for them to see each other — for the first 17-years of her life. Then, after several years of not communication, she received a friend request from her father on Facebook. They decided to reconnect in person so they set up a weekend for her to stay with him and his girlfriend of eight years. That’s when this happened…
So can you remember what it was like the moment you and your dad were reunited? Was there an instant attraction?
It was so weird and confusing. I was seeing my dad for the first time in forever but it was also like, He’s so good-looking! And then I was like,What the hell are you thinking? What is wrong with you? I saw him as my dad but then also part of me was like, I’m meeting this guy who I have been talking to over the internet and really connecting with and I find him attractive.
Was there a single moment you realized that you were sexually and romantically attracted to your dad?
After I had stayed with him for about five days.
He was living with his girlfriend. On the first night he slept on the couch and I slept on the floor, just to make sure that I was okay.
Why was that?
Sleeping in new places makes me very anxious so I asked him to stay with me in case I had one of the terrible nightmares I usually experience. The second night I had him sleep on the couch again and then the third night I fell asleep with him on the floor lying on his chest, in his arms. The fourth night rolled around and we ended up on the floor again. This time we actually cuddled. When he woke up, we were spooning. I didn’t know this at the time but later, after we admitted our feelings, he told me he had had “morning wood” and had gone to fix it.
Did you feel it?
No, I was asleep and he quietly snuck off to the bathroom.
Do you mean he went to masturbate?
No, he just went to pee. He didn’t want me to see that he had an erection. Later that day, we went shopping because I had grown out of all my shorts, so I asked him if he could buy me some new ones. I was trying them on and asked him how I looked and he said I looked good and I felt like I was picking up on something more, but I pushed it out of my head. That night we were play-wrestling in the room I was going to sleep in and I bit him. He was wearing a pair of basketball shorts and a tank top and after I bit him I could see goose bumps pop up from his toes to his shoulders. Then he pinched my inner thigh and I got goose bumps.
We stopped and said that we didn’t know what was going on but admitted that we had strong feelings for each other. We discussed whether it was wrong and then we kissed. And then we made out, and then we made love for the first time. That was when I lost my virginity.
WHAT. THE. FUCK. I mean, seriously, what the…OH DEAR JESUS, here it comes…
But wait, there’s more…
What was it like?
There’s a reason I lost my virginity to him — because I’d never felt comfortable with any other man. It was insanely sensual. It lasted for about an hour and there was a lot of foreplay. We both had orgasms. We are so similar, so it’s so easy to sexually please each other. For example, we both love neck-biting. I’ve never been in a more passionate, loving, fulfilling situation.
Even the first time, because often it’s not the best sexual experience …
That’s what I said! I’d heard that it would hurt so I was expecting pain, but we were both so careful with each other. I think it was also a good experience because most guys my age are only interested in having sex with you. I could tell that wasn’t the case with him.
How do you manage to hide it from your mom? Is it difficult to keep it a secret?
She doesn’t live in the same town as us and we visit her, together, a couple of times a month. Occasionally we slip up and call each other “babe” or other goofy little names. She acts like there’s something up but she doesn’t know what the hell it is. We recently got tattoos together. Mine says, “I love my peanut butter,” because I call him my peanut butter. His says, “I love my jelly,” because that’s what he calls me. What father and daughter do you know who have names for each other and tattoos like that? She just said, “Oh, those are cute.” She plays dumb about it.
Now, if you’ll please excuse me I think I still have some stomach lining that wants to exit my person through my mouth.
If you want to read the entire “What It’s Like To Date Your Dad” interview, head on over to NYMag