This 22-Year-Old Girl Conquered Her Anorexia To Become A Body-Positive Instagram Star

by 3 years ago

Pretty awesome feel-good story about body image from over in the UK papers. Megan Jayne is a “body positive warrior” who is blowing up on Instagram these days. As a teenager, she battled with anorexia to the point where it almost killed her — she only weight about 60 pounds and doctors only gave her a few weeks to live before she checked into a recovery center. Talking to The Mirror, she explains the hell of dealing with an eating disorder:

Megan said: “At my lowest weight size four clothes were falling off me, my hair thinned and I was constantly freezing cold.

“Thin would never be thin enough. The eating disorder overcame me so much that I believed it was all that I was and all that I had.

“I became an empty shell of a girl, still obsessing over whether my stomach was visible through my hospital gown.”

After two years of slow recovery – aided by the unwavering support of her father – Megan had an epiphany aged 16.

She started eating and within a year had nearly tripled her body weight.

But she had replaced starvation with binging and was still unhappy.

After five years of ups and downs, she got involved with the “Fitspiration” movement on Instagram. In other words, she became all about embracing her body for what it is. Her Instagram is a great, positive follow, too:

Go read more of her interview over at The Mirror…

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I'll probably never be a gym bunny. I'll probably never want a salad for dinner. I'll probably never be a UK size 8 again. And now I know, that all of those things are okay. When you stop using exercise to torture your body into weight loss submission, you might just find ways to move that you actually enjoy. Ways that feel good, without pressure, without obligation, moving for the joy of moving. And if not, that's cool too! Exercise is not a requirement for self love, and if you're an ED warrior who has struggled with exercise addiction, like myself, then please don't go back until you're mentally healed. 🌸 As for food, it's not something you have to earn. It's not something you have to burn off. Forget about 'good' and 'bad' foods - what you eat is not a reflection of your moral character. Eat what you want, when you want, and never apologise for it. You deserve to eat, no matter what. Health is not one dimensional. Your mental and emotional wellbeing should be prioritised as well. For some people health is carrot sticks and cross fit. For others it's chocolate cake and catching up with friends. For me, it's yoga in the morning and pizza for dinner. And that's okay. We're all allowed our own definition of health, and of happiness. 💜💙💚🌈🌞

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You can get there. Maybe right now you can't see a way out. Maybe you've been dragged into the depths of self hatred, and you just can't see a way back up. We've all been poisoned by a world that profits from us hating our bodies, and if they had their way we'd be tied down forever. Paying for their impossible idea of perfection with our money, our self esteem, our happiness. But I know that you can break free. Because I did. You just have to believe that you can. You have more strength inside of yourself than you will ever know. You are powerful. Powerful enough to rip off those chains holding you down, and refuse to believe that you aren't good enough any longer. You've spent enough of your life shackled by other people's expectations. It's time to be free, and embrace the beautiful body positive warrior that's been in you all along. If this girl can get there, I know that you can too. 💜💙💚🌈🌞

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💖 SOME BELLY ROLL LOVE 💖 Nobody is supposed to love their belly rolls, I know that. Or at least I know that's what society and the media has taught me. After all, even most plus size models have every roll, bump and crease airbrushed away so they better fit the perfect body standard. God forbid they might bend or sit naturally and show the world what ALL TUMMIES LOOK LIKE SOMETIMES. But why should we be ashamed of our rolls? Soft curves are coveted elsewhere on the body but met with disgust on our beautiful bellies. Why should anyone hold the power to convince us that we're less attractive, less perfect, less amazing because of where our lovely little fat cells settle? I'm not giving anyone that kind of power over my self worth. I choose to love my tummy, tensed or folded, toned or soft, and forevermore unairbrushed. ✊💕

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One day you'll see. The moments of your life that you've missed. The memories that were made to light up your mind with smiles in vivid colour. But instead, they are dull. They were dulled. By a mind that could never truly live in that moment, too consumed by the ever present mirror forcing your reflection to the forefront of your thoughts. You cannot truly live with that mirror, looming over all that you do, and all that you are. One day you'll see, that it was inside you all along - the power to smash the mirror into pieces too small to ever pierce through your self esteem again. One day you'll see, that you could have lived unburdened by lies about your worth residing in your reflection. That you could have laughed with your whole body shaking. That you could have devoured every bite without shame. That you could have lived every moment, for yourself. One day, you will see. And I can't think of a better day than the one you're living right now. 💜💙💚🌈🌞

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UNFILTERED AB HONESTY Probaby the most bizarre part of this whole experience is when I get wonderful comments complimenting my tummy, sometimes even coveting it. I've told you guys this before - my tummy has been my ultimate enemy since I can remember. From 5 years old praying that nobody could see it sticking out through my school dress, to 15 years old and hospitalised for my ED, sneaking to the bathroom to do crunches. I have pulled it, poked it, punched it, loathed it for so many years. Thanks to body positivity, I actually believe your compliments. And not because in some shots my belly is slightly toned - I choose to love my tummy in all of these pictures. The hard parts, the soft parts, the rolls and the jiggle. Every part I used to hate for not matching up to the impossible washboard stereotype the media pollutes our ideas of beauty with. I won't let them brainwash me any longer into thinking there's only one way to have a beautiful belly. They won't sell me their subtle self hatred with cures of magic pills or wraps or potions. We don't need those lies. We all already have beautiful bellies. And we all deserve tummy love. 💙💜💚🌈🌞

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Let's talk about weight gain. I've done a hell of a lot of it in my time. During recovery I literally tripled my body weight in a year (shout out to Mars bars). On the left is one of my first ever body positive posts on here, about 9 months ago. And it doesn't take much scrolling to find a plethora of pictures where I have quite a bit less jiggle than I do now. And that doesn't bother me in the slightest. Because the only thing that's changed in those two pictures is my weight. I'm still the same me. The same mind, the same heart, the same memories, the same dreams. Nothing that counts as a valuable measure of my worth as a person has changed. None of us exist for the purpose of maintaining some perfect body dictated to us by ridiculous cultural standards. Our worth does not decrease with the fluctuations of our weight. We are capable of such spectacular things - of kindness, love, creativity, intelligence and adventure. Of living! And I'm no longer going to let the size I wear or the number I weigh stop me from doing just that. And feeling fabulous while I'm at it. 💁💜💙🌈🌞

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I could say a lot of things about the hate that the body positive community is being hit with lately. About what kind of people bully and body shame. But why say anything when we can show them? Show them that we won't be silenced, that we won't be stopped. That communities like @effyourbeautystandards @pizzasisters4lyfe and @honorcurves are stronger in their mission of love than any hate imaginable. That we won't stop fighting against discrimination - of size, race, gender, age, ability or sexuality. That we will keep trying to change the world from our beautiful little corner of the internet, no matter what. Keep showing them that, my wonderful warrior friends. 🌈🌞🌼

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If I'd have seen this photo a year ago I would have been repulsed. I would have instantly zoomed in on the back fat, bare face, cellulite and saddlebags. I would have torn my image into its imperfect pieces and scrutinised away the truth - that I am a whole being whose worth doesn't decrease with thigh dimples and tummy rolls. I had no idea that the images of perfection we're told to emulate are lies, crafted to tear down our self esteem, take our money and leave us forever chasing an empty promise of happiness hiding in our bathroom scales. Now I know that being happy isn't hitting a goal weight. It isn't having abs or buying a dress size smaller and it certainly isn't in torturing yourself to be a clone of a body in a magazine. It is knowing that we are all just fine, beautiful in fact, just as we are. Every last dimple. 💎🌈🌸

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The sun came out today 🌞 for years the signs of summer approaching have meant only one thing - time to start the next punishing diet and exercise routine to finally weigh x pounds so I can finally enjoy x, y and z. Putting conditionals on our happiness based on how we look is the biggest waste of life imaginable. All those things we're waiting to do, waiting to wear, waiting to be are all right there within our reach, passing us by because we're blinded by our own screwed up self perceptions. We spend our lives in chains that we're told get unlocked by the latest juice cleanse or ab workout, only to feel like hideous failures when the key is forever out of reach. Get out there in the body you have now, wear the bikini, frolic in the sun, love and laugh and show the world that we don't need to cower to their expectations of beauty in order to live our lives how we want. We all deserve a life without body conditionals 🌈🌅🌸

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